I'm 15 weeks now and feel much better although I still get the twinges now and then, but I have been eating 6 weetabix a day so that has helped. I am starting to show more now, but I seem to be in that in between stage where I look overweight rather than pregnant, but Paul seems to think I do look pregnant.

We've managed to get over the shock now, we've managed to get most of the garden sorted and we are in the process of decorating our lounge. Katie is in the small room and we are planning to move her into the second bedroom. She wants the room in Disney Princess, so we want to do that too. Katie will be starting school in September, which works out well as the babies will be due in November. We don't want Katie to feel left out and we want her to feel special.

We have so much to buy again now with having twins, luckily we kept a lot of things from when Katie was born and we didn't think we would need much more, how wrong we were. So we have the expense of the work on the house, new items for the two new additions and of course Katie's new room.

Paul keeps talking about me leaving work, I'm still not hot on the idea. I know with having twins and Katie its a good idea but its my wages I am giving up, my independence, my work friends. I've worked since leaving college, its a massive thing to give up. Paul pays for all the bills, and I buy the shopping and the rest is to do whatever with - which usually gets spent on Katie. I know I do want to give up work to spend the time with Katie and the twins, but the reality of it is somehow different. I mean who wouldnt want to give up working to spend time looking after their family - I must be mad.

Since being pregnant I have stopped drinking (alcohol that is), I don't go out drinking every weekend, but I like to have a social drink when I go out and have more than than my allocated units. So one thing I really miss is having a drink or two, but my babies are far too imporant to risk. I don't smoke, so luckily I haven't got to give up that.

I have tried to eat heathily, but because I felt so ill for those first 12 weeks, all I wanted to eat was junk food - that when I could eat. The last few weeks I have been eating more fruit and veg. I miss my stilton but I can cope without that.

I am due to see the midwife on the 14th June and will be having the Downs testing. Paul and I have already talked about this and we think its worth going for the test, we are not sure what to do if the test comes back as a high risk, neither of us want to think about that, we're just hoping that everything is okay. To be honest, I can't help but worry about it, I've not mentioned it to Paul, I'm sure he's worrying too, but he won't tell me as I know he won't want to worry me. If everything is okay, he'll tell me then.

My dreams are becoming more vivid, in one of them I dreamt that I have lost one of the twins, that was really awful and made me worry, I suppose I have been subconsciouly thinking about it.

We are hoping that the midwife will be able to tell us if our twins are identical or not. We didn't ask at the scan, its not something we thought about, we were too busy getting over the shock. It does state on my notes that its a single sac, so we assume that this means they are identical. We might have to wait till we have the scan.

We have talked about whether the we want to know the sex, normally I wouldn't want to know and leave it till the birth, but I think it would be more practical to know as we are having twins. Paul doesn't want to know and doesn't want me to ask, and I can see why, its so much more special when they are born so I don't think we will be asking. I have a strange suspicion that they are both boys, Paul seems to think they are girls. We have decided to do a sweep on the sex of the babies. Half of the money will go the winner and the other half we are going to give to a children's charity, were going to start this after my 20 week scan.

We've also decided not to buy anything until after my 20 week scan, I just want to make sure that everything is okay before we buy anything. When we do buy anything, we will be storing it at Paul's mums or my mums - don't they say its bad luck to bring it into your own - I know its an old wife's tale - but I don't want to risk it - I suppose I am pretty supersticious.

Love Anita x

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